Hmmm. Another misc journal update. After having my net turned off until I sort myself out, I've been doing a lot of playing around in photoshop and a few more shoots around town. I have also started making some music and such mostly out of bordom. I spotted a few very old school friends while walking around town. They are doing well. Though we all looked very different to the last we met. My shoulder has finally stopped aching and have cleared more room on my laptop to work with. Fey fey's fangs are okay now btw. ^^'

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[link] My fursona. Thank you For drawing him.

Thank you For doing my commission of my fursona so fast. ([link])

~Random song I love at the moment~


I'm in over my head
They wanna try and build me up
So they can tear me down
I wish that I could be back there
But I'm writing here right now

They've taken everything that I've had to give and
They say it's over but man I'm still here livin
I don't know what to do, I think that maybe

I'm in over my head
Stuck in the red
Somethin they said
Makes me think that I'm in over my head
Over my head
Over my head

I've got to get away from here
And it couldn't be too soon
Cuz I see the stars are here with me
Like rockets to the moon

You take me everywhere that I've never been and
Show me the meaning of what life had to give and
I don't know what to say, I think that maybe

I'm in over my head
Lyin in her bed
Somethin she said
Makes me think that I'm in over my head
Over my head
Over my head

They've taken everything that I've had to give and
They say it's over but man I'm still here livin
I don't know what to do, I think that maybe

I'm in over my head
Stuck in the red
Somethin they said
Makes me think that I'm in over my head
Over my head
Over my head
I'm in over my head
I'm in over my head
I'm in over my head
I'm in over my head

~Over my head by Lit~

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[link] Lol says exactly what I am. ^^ Thanks Dracon for putting your up for me to have a go at. ^^

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~Is missing a good friend. Missing her dearly.~

I made a slight mistake today. As usual in Fey's odd working mind he has to be either early or fashionably late. I was expecting to be at the dentists on time and I was. But sadly the appointment was for tomorrow. *Sighs* Still I did make it perfectly on time. Silly Fey fey.

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[link] My fursona. Thank you For drawing him.

Thank you For doing my commission of my fursona so fast. ([link])

~Random song I love at the moment~


Dim the lights, it hurts my eyes
It scars my skin and shatters my lies
Fold the blinds, let's stay inside

Take my hand, I'll give you strength
come with me, we'll make our way
Through the light into the night

Welcome to my world,
It's calm and cold
Welcome to my soul,
It's withered and old

Welcome to my mind,
Tread lightly and slow
Welcome to my love,
Touch it and make it grow

We belong to this, this protected room
The world outside is for the ones
That's not affriad to lose

So Take my hand, you are invited in
Share my darkness and my lusts
I'm filled to the brim

Welcome to my world,
It's calm and cold
Welcome to my soul,
It's withered and old

Welcome to my mind,
Tread lightly and slow
Welcome to my love,
Touch it and make it grow

~My world by Colony 5~

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[link] Lol says exactly what I am. ^^ Thanks Dracon for putting your up for me to have a go at. ^^

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Don't forget to read my random real dreams
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"Goths aren't some strange otherworldly blood-sucking creatures. They're people too."

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~Is missing a good friend. Missing her dearly.~

~Update on project~

Doing okay. Audio reflective journal is going well. I seem to have a……very English recorded accent.

^.^

Two maybe three weeks left. This time there is no sneak peek of the work *chuckles* so this will be more of a surprise to my tutors (who have a habit of checking my DA area and others of my classmates.)

I hope you all are having a good few weeks. Mine are okay if a lil sleepless and exhausting. *hugs to all*

[link] My fursona. Thank you For drawing him.

Thank you For doing my commission of my fursona so fast. ([link])

~Random song I love at the moment~

Every time I look into your deep blue eyes,
I can see myself, covered behind the wall of lies
I know you want me to be like the angel in your dreams
But I'm not that strong, I dont have wings to fly

Tell me what you think of me
Tell me your desire
Tell me what you want from me
Will I ever understand?

I'm not the angel of your dreams
Nothing is quite as it seems
And I'm not from heaven sent
I'm not holy just like you
I'm just a ride around the storm
At the edge of time I was born
I'm the lonely navigator
I guide you through this passage of life
I'm not the angel of your dreams
Nothing is quite as it seems
And I'm not from heaven sent
I'm not holy just like you

Can you hear the devil cry?
Can you hear, they are coming,
Can you hear the devil cry?
Will you ever understand?

All you you want is just a helping hand
Helping you to live your life
You're on your knees and pray for the angel
That brings you salvation and dispair
You falling deep into an endless sleep
and I know I'm free

I'm free again...

I'm not the angel of your dreams
Nothing is quite as it seems
And I'm not from heaven sent
I'm not holy just like you
I'm just a ride around the storm
At the edge of time I was born
I'm the lonely navigator
I guide you through this passage of life
I'm not the angel of your dreams
Nothing is quite as it seems
And I'm not from heaven sent
I'm not holy just like you

I'm just a ride around the storm
At the edge of time I was born
I'm the lonely navigator
I guide you through this passage of life
I'm not the angel of your dreams
Nothing is quite as it seems
And I'm not from heaven sent
I'm not holy just like you

I'm just a ride around the storm
At the edge of time I was born
I'm the lonely navigator
I guide you through this passage of life

~Navigator by Blutengel~

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[link] Lol says exactly what I am. ^^ Thanks Dracon for putting your up for me to have a go at. ^^

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Don't forget to read my random real dreams
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Insane by a test
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"Goths aren't some strange otherworldly blood-sucking creatures. They're people too."

Real life friends friends

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~Is missing a good friend. Missing her dearly.~

~Update on project~

Done a weeks worth of research. Was doing audio reflective journals all through for every day so my tutors can be happy. I've found a good few poems to use and slowly reading through a few book. I have already drawn out the scenes(Albeit very very very roughly). I still need a few more though.

Also did a little birthday present for I hope she'll like it.

[link] My fursona. thank you For drawing him.

Thank you For doing my commission so fast. ([link])

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~Random funny thing~

What color/kind of socks are you wearing?
[ ] Red = loud
[ ] Green = stupid
[ ] None = freaky
[ ] Fuzzy = gorgeous
[ ] Yellow = innocent
[x] Purple = a little too happy
[ ] Black = emo
[ ] Stripes = funny
[ ] Gray = skanky
[ ] Pink = preppy
[ ] Light blue = sweaty
[ ] Other = hot
[ ] White = sexy

What kind of bottom half are you wearing?
[ ] Shorts = cutie
[ ] Skirt/skort = skank
[ ] Corduroy = faggot homosexual
[ ] Tight jeans = scene kid
[ ] Ripped jeans = emo
[x] Cammo = cage fighter
[ ] Jeans = prep
[ ] Cargo = clown
[ ] Sweats = athlete
[ ] Boxers = brat
[ ] Booty shorts = female
[ ] Capris = Gangster
[ ] Nothing = hoe
[ ] Dickies = weirdo
[ ] Bikini bottoms = tiki girl
[ ] Skinny jeans = beast
[ ] Other = sex addict

What is your natural hair color?
[ ] Auburn = that every one wants to make out with
[ ] Blonde = with a broken heart
[ ] Black = with a sexy smile
[ ] Dark brown = with a hot boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ] Red = that likes to have fun
[ ] Brown = who loves to be different
[x] Dirty blonde= with sexy eyes
[ ] Bald = with herpes
[ ] Other = with a nice ass (Like, a very bright brown, or dark blond.)

Pick the month you were born on:
[ ] 1 = who ate
[x] 2 = who needed
[ ] 3 = who killed
[ ] 4 = who shot
[ ] 5 = who killed
[ ] 6 = who smoked with
[ ] 7 = who farted on
[ ] 8 = who ran shirtless with
[ ] 9 = who got stabbed horribly by
[ ] 10 = who cuddled with
[ ] 11 = who slept with
[ ] 12 = who ran naked with

Pick the day you were born on:
[ ] 01 = the kool-aid man
[ ] 02 = a dog
[ ] 03 = a shoe
[ ] 04 = a toothbrush
[ ] 05 = Santa Claus
[ ] 06 = The Trojan man
[ ] 07 = Barny the dinosaur
[ ] 08 = a prostitute
[ ] 09 = a porn star
[ ] 10 = a bag of weed
[ ] 11 = a lover
[ ] 12 = a glass of milk
[ ] 13 = a horse
[ ] 14 = a lesbian
[ ] 15 = a stripper
[ ] 16 = a pickle
[ ] 17 = a jew
[ ] 18 = a homo
[ ] 19 = an orange
[ ] 20 = a dildo
[ ] 21 = a homeless guy
[ ] 22 = a whore
[ ] 23 = my crush
[ ] 24 = an easter egg
[ ] 25 = a jar of honey
[ ] 26 = a condom
[x] 27 = a bowl of cereal
[ ] 28 = a french fry
[ ] 29 = Micheal Jackson
[ ] 30 = Paris Hilton
[ ] 31 = YOUR MOM

Pick the color of the shirt you are wearing
[ ] White = because I love marijuana
[ ] Black = because im sexy as hell
[ ] Pink = because the voices told me to
[ ] Blue = because I have AMAZING boobs
[ ] Red = because I'm a pimp and your jealous
[ ] Polka Dots = because I hate my life
[x] Purple = because I'm gay
[ ] Gray = because I got dared
[ ] Other = because that's how I roll
[ ] Green = because I'm good in bed
[ ] Orange = because I smoke crack
[ ] Turquoise = because I have a noodle in my nose
[ ] Brown = because I had to
[ ] Shirtless = because I've got abs

now fill in our words into this:

I'm a ______________________________________ and you're jealous!

I'm a little too happy cage fighter who needed a bowl of cereal, because I'm gay and you're jealous!

Lol.....

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~~~Is Night gentle?~~Markelov Vladimir
Night closes doors forever
Night cures my soul as a medicine
In Night should’nt be doubted ever
Night sense increases to everything
At Night you can shed your tears
At night we are flying to planets
At Night always deadens fears
At Night we are full of violence
At Night you will close embraces –
And Night this caress will cover
At Night you’ll remove your dresses
And God blesses you, my lover
In Night rises dizziness and passion
At Night you’re with itself alone
At Night - reign, you’re free in action
At Night nothing keeps in your soul
Night reconciles spirits, right you’re
At Night it is useless to wager

In Night it is stuffy and frightful
Tonight I shall leave you like voyager...

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[link] Lol says exactly what I am. ^^ Thanks Dracon for putting your up for me to have a go at. ^^

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~Is missing a good friend. Missing her dearly.~

A nuclear problem.
19th April 09

I had another very messed up dream, only this time I didn’t die in it.

I was with my friends outside the closed down Virgin music store. Loud rock music, lots of talking, laughing, a few drinks passed around. That sort of thing. I was daydreaming a little after not sleeping the night before and stared at the sky. It was black. And I mean truly black. Small portions were utterly jet-black. As you can imagine I voice my concerns about the imminent rain. Some looked and agreed leaving to a covered area some to the nearest open pub. Anyway I moved to sit in the doorway of the closed down store noticing my friend asleep in the corner smiling (He always smiles when he sleeps.) So I sit there beside him the place now quieter without the music. I looked over to the bank across at the large TV. The usual politics wasn’t showing, nor speeches from Brown, no recorded arguments from the House of Commons but something else. All I could make out from where I was was a map of Iran. There were huge circles around various parts and a lot of fast moving text (though I couldn’t read it from my distance.) Half an hour later the bank closed early. The workers came over to us on their way to the car park by the mall. One of them a girl told us something. Iran had ignored all the sanctions and blocks the UN and NATO had placed on them and as far as the world saw they were building nuclear weapons. So America had decided to force them with general bombings on the production facilities. This caused Iran to fire a nuke at the US. The map I had seen was just showing the potential damage the US could do with theirs. Needless to say I went home after waking my friend and telling him just what chaos had been started. It rained very heavily on my way home a crack of lightning hitting the lamppost I passed making me jump nearly out of my skin. When I got home the news was in disarray. Several were no longer working those that were gave very bad news. China and North Korea had joined in against the UN and more importantly the US. North Korea invaded South Korea. The remaining nuclear weapons in the world were flying from continent to continent. England had joined in with her navy of subs on the side of the US. Marking us as targets. I didn’t sleep well that night and was woken when my parents burst into my room saying both London and Manchester were no more. My city would be one of the main militaristic targets having so many of the ships of the navy docked and many subs being rearmed. So our family started packing. As they left I slumped onto my bed wondering just what the hell was happening and glanced at my wardrobe. The one that we’d gotten rid of two weeks ago and I knew it couldn’t be real. I woke up soon after realizing that and typed this up for you guys.

Damned scary really for a dream. Wasn’t even a nightmare.

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~Mild news~

Had a good holiday, a few house parties, and more than a few chocolate eggs. I've moved back into my old room and enjoying the fresh start. The holiday is all-but over though I don't mind. After all it's time to get busy. To get work done. And besides. It's the summer after all.

~A new Assignment~

Heh, Been waiting for this one. ^^ The final one.
This one I was allowed to come up with the theme for. "Midnight" So this will be based on that time of evening. I will be using fairy tales and such to base the photos on. So any suggestions on which fairy tales(which are set at midnight)or folk tales/rumours would be cool. I do have a few ideas but I'd like to hear yours.

/On another note one of my friends from across the pond () has been having problems. Lost her job and having no luck finding a new one with bills to pay. If any of you have any cash to spare and have been meaning to have someone do a commission for you. I'd suggest to check her out (Send a note and such to her).\

~I Sit and Think~ (JRR Tolkien)~~~~~~random poem~~~

I sit beside the fire and think
of all that I have seen,
of meadow-flowers and butterflies
in summers that have been;

Of yellow leaves and gossamer
in autumns that there were,
with morning mist and silver sun
and wind upon my hair.

I sit beside the fire and think
of how the world will be
when winter comes without a spring
that I shall never see.

For still there are so many things
that I have never seen:
in every wood in every spring
there is a different green.

I sit beside the fire and think
of people long ago,
and people who will see a world
that I shall never know.

But all the while I sit and think
of times there were before,
I listen for returning feet
and voices at the door.

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[link] Lol says exactly what I am. ^^ Thanks Dracon for putting your up for me to have a go at. ^^

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Don't forget to read my random real dream
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Insane by a test
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~Is missing a good friend. Missing her dearly.~